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I’ve found the person with whom I want to spend the rest of my life …

I can recall several moments in which all was considered lost and all was considered forgotten. Moments of pride and moments of despair held together by pieces of worn-torn memory are remembered when called upon. It seems that it was only yesterday when I spoke of pain and lived with joy. And it seems as if it were only an hour ago that I cried inside mourning what had died but was waiting to be reborn.

There are these ‘things’ that are seemingly beyond our control. There are these ‘things,’ that when viewed from a different angle, are magically transformed into something else entirely. There are these ‘things’ that are desired but are deemed unattainable. These ‘things’ have a beginning and have an ending. These ‘things’ are only thought to be what they are. These ‘things’ are sometimes uninvited yet somehow overstay their welcome. And these ‘things’ can make a sane person lose all rational thought.

I have experienced moments in which I needed time to sort through the chaos that my mind fell victim to, and I’ve experienced moments in which I had to take the time to deconstruct the chaos that my mind so creatively constructed. And in this moment in time, I am experiencing one of those moments right now. And I reflect on how things got to where they are. And I wonder what made me think that. And I question why I was fooling myself. And I examine why I lived that lie. And I continue to ponder these thoughts that race through my mind.

I guess I could go on to explain certain things, but I really don’t want your feedback. I suppose I could elaborate on the reasoning behind my certain actions and non-action, but I would prefer not to hear your retort. I think I could expand upon my thoughts to make them easier for you to grasp, but I can do without your response.

I can do without your unsolicited advice.

I can do without your prejudiced opinion.

I can do without your pseudo intellectualism.

I can do without your false support.

I can do without your impatience.

I can do without your ‘constructive’ criticism.

I can do without your ‘friendly’ competition.

I can do without your talking to me … and your writing to me.

I can do without your trying to ‘help’ me.

I can do without your selfish ways.

I can do without your ‘love.’

I can do without your vanity.

I can do without your ‘dangling carrots.’

I can do without your attention-seeking personality.

I can do without your ‘jokes’ and your laughter.

I can do without your friendship.

I can do without the sound of your voice.

I could possibly provide you with my rationale so that you could further comprehend, but I don’t want a reply from you. For my sake, or rather for yours, I prefer that we both not speak.

Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom …

It never ceases to amaze me, the lack of common sense that seems to be pretty common. Yet, in these moments of amazement, I found myself feeling pretty annoyed, and with a shake of my head I found myself wondering …

Why do people send mass text messages telling grown people to vote? If I don’t know the importance of voting by now, when will I? Do you think that you are the only person sending me these voting text messages? Why do people think they are the only person sending these type of texts? Do people really think that their text is the only text I receive in a day? And when I reply asking people to stop sending these mass text messages, why do they get offended? As if I should be pleased to be on the receiving end of such mass and unoriginal messages — “Barack the Vote,” “Please vote. People have died for the right to vote,” “Let your voice be heard. Vote!” Puh-lease. I don’t hear from these people all year, yet they want to remind me to vote. All of a sudden these people ‘care’ if I’m registered and if I vote or not. Amazing.

Why do people, whom I don’t hear from 364 days out of the year, want to send me festive text messages on Thanksgiving or Christmas wishing me a happy holiday? Do you really care if my Thanksgiving is full of thanks given? Or if my Christmas is full of sparkle? No. And when it comes to my important holiday, i.e., my birthday, do I receive a text message wishing me ‘many more’? Of course I don’t. Yet, somehow you decide to send me a text message wishing me a ‘Happy New Year,’ but not on the day of my new year. Amazing.

What am I to you? A friend? No. If I were, I would not be hearing from you only on a national holiday or two a year. If I were a friend, I wouldn’t receive text invites to local events that you’re promoting, but when it comes to, say, a dinner party or a birthday party, I receive nothing.

What am I to you? I am just a name that you select in your contact list before you hit ’send.’ If that is the case, which it blatantly appears to be, please delete me.

By the way, did you get this message? I was thinking of ‘just’ you when I was writing this. I hit ’send.’ I hope you got the message.